If you refuse to admit to your life purpose, or you hold off your search for it, or you deny its existence, or you are addicted to the endless search for your purpose rather than actualising it, then the search for your life purpose will cost you a lot of money in self-help books, courses and missed opportunities. This is known as making the search for your life purpose your actual life purpose. The search becomes your purpose rather than finding it and then living it. To do this is a choice, because your life purpose is based on choice.
By sending out a lifelong search party for your life purpose, then it will cost you a lot of time, energy, space and money if your intention is not to find it.